drawingtheperfectcircle

The message for tonight:

Obeying doesn’t make me good.

Jesus makes me good, so I obey.

His grace is mind blowing, and He gives it freely and more abundantly than I will ever understand.

I love when God speaks to you through His Word. It’s almost as if your name should be written explicitly in the verse. Recently, I have been reading through the book of Zephaniah. In the very last chapter there is an amazing verse that leapt off the page and spoke to my heart, so I thought I would share.

Zephaniah 3:14

The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.

I really love this verse. No matter what we have going on, or what we have done, God is merciful and mighty to save. His love is so powerful and awe-inspiring that it not only calms us from the chaos that we may be experiencing, but it overwhelms us so much that we are just quiet; in awe of Him. His love is so great that whatever we are worrying about falls to the wayside in comparison. I am going to rest in this promise.

:D

I love conversations with my seeso. Somehow even when we’re just venting I learn something.

Want to know a secret?

I have no idea where I’m going in life. I feel like I should be more worried about that declaration but the thing is...I’m not.

I have my own ideas and things that I am trying to put together right now even as I type this…but honestly I know that regardless of what I think I’m going to do….God KNOWS what He wants to do with me. Sometimes I get a little preoccupied trying to put God in this nice little neat box I made for Him.

I hold it up to Him and say, “Jump in, cause trust me…I’ve got plans”

How dumb is that?!?!?!

Why would I want to put God in a tiny box when He is so out of this world and huge and glorious?!?!?!

In short, I need to just let God move. He will open the right doors for me. I know it. I just need to shove that little box under my bed right alongside my doubts and a couple pairs of shoes I haven’t worn since high school.

This has been a psa. thanks for listening.

I guess one more late night thought before I engulf myself in homework. I think I am going to start a consistent journal about the passages I am going through in the Bible. I journal from time to time….but I really need to strive to make it a consistent thing. I think that it would help me break down my thoughts and internalize things better. Welp. Guess it’s time to go do that.

night world.

“As a parent it is your duty to stay as physically fit as possible. Because your kids are faster and more resilient and you need to be able to keep up and destroy them if necessary”

Best thing the pastor said tonight. hahaha. I feel like this will be my mentality when I am a parent one day. The fit series at church is great. Learning how to be a better steward of our bodies and minds is a wonderful journey so far. :]

I jumped into the deep end today. My friend decided to volunteer at church today and asked me If I wanted to do it. I only know a little bit about the program but I couldn’t say no after feeling God’s call to become more involved in my church life. So even though I am not 100% sure about everything I will be doing, I am excited to have taken the leap! That’s what He wanted from me. So if you can remember to maybe say a prayer for me every once and a blue moon, that’d be awesome. Prayer for a great change in me this semester at school and church.

Also…if anyone actually reads these text posts and wants prayer, I would be MORE than willing to pray for you.

juss hit a sista up y’all.

Tomorrow I go back to CBU. I don’t really know why I’m so nervous….but I am. I am also very excited! I get the chance to be back in a classroom where it’s ok to believe in Christ; a classroom where I am taught with a Christ-centered view. I’m also super excited to get involved!! Lately, I feel this pressing on my heart to get involved in community. It’s one thing to go to church…but I’ve been feeling God’s call to put myself to work. I pray He shows me clearly where I need to step up…Although I feel that He just wants me to jump in anywhere. haha. In which case, I pray for the courage to walk towards any and all doors He chooses to open.

So with tomorrow coming sooner than I’d like, I am going to try and prepare as best I can for this next semester!

Here’s to a great one!

I’m not much, but I’m much in Your hands.

I’m not great, but I’m great in Your love.

Oh how He loves us! It feels good to sing these words with a smile of comfort and assurance.

So, here I am checking in with a lengthier personal post.

Quite a bit has transpired since I’ve last written anything longer than a couple of sentences on here so I wanted to take a moment and just spew everything out. With that being said, here I go!

This past Saturday I played my first show with my band Blue Wild. What a complete rush. It had been almost two years since I have stepped foot on a stage to share my music. Granted, I was really rusty and definitely could have done better, but for my first show back it went well! I was so nervous I could barely control my voice- hence why I KNOW I can do better. There were times though that I would just get so lost in it…and it felt like home.comfortable. There was a moment that I distinctly remember that really touched me in a weird way. There was a break in between songs and I was talking to the crowd, then out of no where  I just stopped and looked around. I actually said out loud, “I just want to soak you guys in for a second”. And that’s what I did. I took a break, breathed in, and looked around at everyone. It was so weird, but amazing. Like I was taking a mental snap shot of my surroundings- their faces, my band, the way I was feeling- and I would store this away to pull out when I wanted to reminisce about times that would bring a smile to my face. It was quick, but I got more out of that moment than I expected. I am so stoked to be able to play more shows with the amazing group of guys I’ve been blessed with. We’ve had quite the journey to get here, but we’re functioning. We’re more than that…we’re doing well. We have things the way we want them now…after all this time. Hard to believe all the crap that has happened to me in the past year….seriously. I look at the person I was last spring and summer…and that girl isn’t me. That girl was a broken shadow of who I have become and, God willing, this girl will grow to be someone much greater. I am FAR from perfect…trust me…I struggle with this fact daily, but I know I am growing, and that’s what counts. I am MUCH more equipped spiritually now to handle the things that happen around me. I am anew, thanks to God’s grace. He makes beautiful things out of dust.

In other news, I had an interesting opportunity present itself to me…and I thought it was going to happen, but yet again God pulled the plug. Not that I am angry…I’m just disappointed that I got my hopes up. BUT, I know my God has a reason and a plan for everything. There is a season for everything under the sun. It’s hard sometimes coming to the realization that I am 20 years young (Almost 21! YEEE!) and I don’t know exactly where God is leading me. All I can do is hold tight to the fact that I know my God is bigger than any of my fears, any of my hesitations, and ALL of my doubts.

Well, I think that should about wrap it up for now.

See you later, Space cowboys.

With everyday I pray you’d say I brought you joy in some way.
But that’s not the case, cause I took it away, I turned your joy into pain.
I know my songs were never profound, they were never sincere enough to make your heart sing out.
So where am I wrong, in hoping that I might someday realize where I was all along?

Religion is man’s attempt at working to reach God.

Biblical Christianity is God reaching down to man through His Son.