drawingtheperfectcircle

Religion is man’s attempt at working to reach God.

Biblical Christianity is God reaching down to man through His Son.

I am alive because You are.

“Am I only a God nearby,”

declares the Lord,

“and not a God far away?

Can anyone hide in secret places so that I cannot see him?”

declares the Lord.

“Do not I fill heaven and earth?”

declares the Lord.

This has been the theme of my life for the past while.

Firstly, I fully recognize that I am blessed beyond measure. God has given me everything I could have ever asked for and more (not necessarily physical things..although I am not entirely lacking in those either). I’m talking about the fact that I have a beautiful family that I love, friends who are a constant blessing, a stable home, etc. I realize this life that I have, every breath I breath is a gift from God. He knew me before I was born. He created me with a purpose in mind. I am no mistake.

Unfortunately, even when I know all of these things I still find myself worrying or wondering where my next steps will be. I should have learned by now that that’s not going to help me, haha, but I am human. The thing about humans is we freak out about every little thing we can’t control. That’s when we need to take a step back and realize we don’t have to be the ones to control it. We have an amazing God to help with that.

I suppose I’ll get to the point of this post now. Today I was talking with my parents about how were going to pay for the rest of my college. I have been worrying about this for awhile. I probably have about three semesters left….and in monetary terms that’s quite a chunk of money. So while I was being me and worrying, my dad laid it out and said that he didn’t know how we would pay for it. Oh great…that’s just what I wanted to hear. Then he said something to me that stuck out. He said that we would need to wait on the Lord. We need to trust Him and His plan; most importantly- His timing. Suddenly I was calm. Something clicked. I know He has me right where He needs me, and while I am here it is better for me to be a good steward of what I have and use it for His glory than waste my time worrying about something He already has covered.

To top it all off, at church this morning one of the lines in the worship song we were singing was, “and so I wait for You”.

Long story short, I’m good. He has me, and who better?

anyways, today’s service was a blessing. now it’s time for me to make some dinner and watch some netflix.

Psalm 27:14 Wait for the Lord; Be strong, and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the Lord.

Jeremiah 17:7-10

 ⁷ “But blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD,
   whose confidence is in him.
⁸ They will be like a tree planted by the water
   that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
   its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
   and never fails to bear fruit.”

 ⁹ The heart is deceitful above all things
   and beyond cure.
   Who can understand it?

 ¹⁰ “I the LORD search the heart
   and examine the mind,
to reward each person according to their conduct,
   according to what their deeds deserve.”

these verses are wonderful. basically what this all boils down to…is that we as humans are utterly sinful and the decisions we make are not always the best if we follow our heart. our hearts lie. our hearts are dirty. our hearts are deceitful.our hearts are beyond cure. so when you follow your heart…..are you really doing what’s right? the only thing we should follow is God. we must trust in the Lord, not ourselves. when we trust in the Lord, we have the unlimited blessing of an unlimited God at our disposal. when we make decisions based on our deceitful heart…we risk the possibility of hurting ourselves and hurting others. and we must keep in mind that the Lord knows our hearts…and each of us will be given what we deserve. good or bad. the point: don’t trust your deceitful heart. the heart is fickle. instead, trust a steadfast God who wants nothing more than to bless you. act with honor. do what’s right. God knows the heart and will repay you for your deeds.